i fear i may have been too dumb to understand this book.

a lot was going on, and i had a really hard time following some chapters. when we were in the ward discussing kaysen’s life, i could follow that. but when there were chapters where it was just discussing things, such as velocity and viscocity, i had no idea what was going on. i really felt like i was reading a journal by someone in psychosis. which yeah can be argued to be powerful, but for me it created a text that was so manic in nature i felt lost as kaysen ran away from me with her concepts.

this isn’t to say i think this book is “bad”, on the contrary. i really think i just couldn’t grasp what was going on due to those weird in-between chapters. 

i did really like the chapters within the ward, such as the chapters about ice cream, and alice & daisy’s stories. but overall it felt like something was missing — i can’t put my finger on what; it’s just a feeling i have. 

i hope to come back to this some day and fully grasp what i had read, because currently, this felt extremely disjointed.